Question (One of many)

I was thinking today (surprise, suprise!), and I have decided to put up one of my struggles here, for different perspectives and to see if I'm the only one.

I don't know, if one should be honest all the time, if one should do what will give them the highest benefit, or if they should just plain lie and confuse everybody. Honestly, I could do any of these, under certain circumstances; as would anybody.

My situation is specific to this :

Most people who know me, know that I have gone from being a snail, staying in my shell to a star fish, bright and vibrant. Some things may have happened naturally, some I took upon myself to improve. But I still cannot do this one thing.

I cannot walk upto somebody and tell them that they hurt me. I can apologise when I know I'm wrong, I can give honest advices or opinions. I can even tell them how they've hurt somebody else. But, I cannot look at someone in the eye and tell them, 'This is what you did, it hurt my feelings'.

This troubles me a little, because I keep thinking over it, I keep hurting over it, and I cannot let it out.

Sure, I can call up a third person and say that '.. .. .. bothers me, and I felt hurt.' But even this is not of much help, since I believe only something personal can hurt me, and the matter should remain between us.

I don't know if I can change, I try, but it's not easy. So here is my question to you :

Can you do this easily? How do you go about it? What goes through your head when you tell somebody something like this?

Random

The sun set to settle, after a bright afternoon.

The little girl happily walked to the valley.

Money was heavily jingling in her pocket,

As she hopped to her favorite alley.

She paused to breathe and looked around her.

The lights and smells had always made her ponder.

How delightful, was this big, active street!

She thought her mind would never stop to wonder.

'Hello Mr. Candy, how are you today?

I'll have my usual - Candy in the May.'

'Sorry little girl, forgive me today;

All the valley children have taken yours away.'

A little disheartened, she again looked around.

Hoping to hear, what would seem, an inviting sound.

'Hello Mr. Ice Cream, how are you today?

I'll have my usual - Very Very Wow.'

'Sorry little girl, I'm in a rish today;

My child had taken ill, and is calling for me now.'

A little sadder, she again looked around.

Her eyes brightened up, at what she found.

'Hello Mr. Cake Shop, how are you today?

I'll have a nice, cream, cup-cake.'

'Sorry little girl, but with the coins you show;

I can give you nothing you see on the row.'

The little girl started for home, completely heartbroken,

As she jingled sadly what she had got from home to spend.

Again, she looked around, hoping to give the sadness away,

But only an empty street called out to her, with nobody to lend.

(Wrote this very randomly. Think of this as a little girl's perception of the world when she was heartbroken.)

Kiddo mode!

I love being an insane little kid!!!

I had an ice-cream today. A deep orange ice candy that was apparently mango flavored? :p

Anyway, the point is, it was superfun to demand an ice-cream, choose one from that pile at the local ice-cream wala and happily lick it.

The end result being very orange lips and a very orange tongue. Imagine the fun in sticking out a deep orange tongue at somebody with maniacal laughter in your eyes. Superfun! :D

Licking on your ice-cream, keep staring at somebody and intimidate them. There are little kids looking at you enviously. *sticking my tongue out at them again*

The best part though, is then asking people. 'Arre, how much of my face is still orange?' and then your friends saying - it's all ok. And it is, till you realise you come home and look at the mirror and say, 'I'm still half orange? (gaali), I'll get my revenge!'

You do all that, have fun, and a 5-minute-ice-cream can inspire you to write a blog post, think fondly of your friends and hopefully entertain a few people. :)

Rambling

Exam time = creativity time!

Yes, you read that correct. I'm going absolutely crazy! Can you believe my sixth semester at my wonderful college is about to end? No? Neither can I. (Now please don't say it was to happen someday. I want to wonder. :P )

So here I am, with a prelim paper tomorrow, dying to write about something. What should I write about?

If you get a headache at any point, stop reading. If it doesn't go away in 2 minutes, don't read further.

How difficult is it to choose something to write about? We talk so much, about so many things. We have opinions, comments and judgements even, about many things we've never even personally dealt with. Is that correct? Or is it all right to talk about something you're really not sure of, just because no one of consequence may get to hear of it?

I talk a lot, and my opinions may come across as pretty strong too. But is that correct? Should I be talking about it? Why do we have opinions about the government, the police, the film industry, politics, business.. when most of us have never been there? How easy is it for us to judge somebody, by merely looking at them, based on what we hear about them?

Forget the big names. Should I be judging the people around me? They do many things I don't approve of, as well. But I know them. I can see what they do. Can I give my opinion now? Should I though? Not everything I have to say is positive. Won't that harm my relationship with them?

Here I am, talking to much, lost in my thoughts, unable to cohesively say what exactly I think *I* should do. I'm sure such things happen to anybody who thinks, no offence to the others.

But have you ever thought of people as people? Surely everybody has an excuse for their behavior. But again, how many of these excuses are justified?

There are surely so many people out there, who've gone through personal crisis that I can't even begin to imagine, that I don't know of. Is my behaviour to them justified? Can they use it as an excuse for something that they do wrong?

I can go on and on, but I'm getting a headache typing it out. :p

So today, I'm officially a gone-case. :p

Just some random thoughts I wanted to get out. I don't want to disturb anybody who's studying, with my rantings, so just thought of putting it up here.

To all those who have exams - All the best!

To those who don't - I'm envious. Do something good with the time you have.